Behind me, the room slowly remembered how to exhale.
To understand how I got to that bench, you have to go back to 1994 and Terminal 3 at O’Hare International Airport, where the floor hummed with the vibration of a thousand people moving through a world too large and too loud for a five-year-old to hold in her mind all at once.
The overhead announcements came in waves. Rolling suitcases clattered on the hard floors. People moved in fast, purposeful streams, weaving without looking, traveling in bodies that knew exactly where they were going.
I was five, wrapped in a red wool scarf my grandmother had given me the previous Christmas. It was too long, the tail of it dragging on the linoleum, and it scratched my neck, but I had refused that morning to let Karen take it off because it was mine and she had a way of taking things that were mine and not returning them.
“Keep up, Samantha,” she said, glancing back with eyes that measured rather than looked. “You’re slowing us down.”
