Part of you is.
But another part, older and sharper, has moved beyond panic into something more dangerous. Clarity. When a person has spent years swallowing truths too heavy to speak, there comes a moment when fear burns off and only bone remains. You are standing in that moment now, and it is colder than rage.
The judge lifts his gavel slightly, preparing to continue.
Then a voice cuts through the courtroom.
“Excuse me.”