For two years after that, Tommy rode with me every Sunday. Sometimes we talked, sometimes we didn’t. He told me once that the only time his mind quieted, the only time the memories stopped playing on repeat, was when he was on his bike.
“It’s like… the wind blows all the darkness away, just for a little while,” he’d said. “Lets me remember I’m still alive.”
Tommy was married now, with kids of his own. Still rode. Still called me “Mr. Ray.”
And there were others. Sarah Jenkins, who’d lost her husband and started riding his old Indian as a way to feel close to him. Dave Perkins from the auto shop, who’d been sober twenty years and swore riding saved his life when the bottle almost took it. My club brothers, most of them Vietnam vets who’d found on two wheels the peace that eluded them on four.
We weren’t outlaws. We were accountants and plumbers, retired cops and schoolteachers. We were men and women who’d discovered that sometimes, the only way to stay sane in a broken world was to feel the wind on your face and the rumble of an engine in your chest.
