After my husband’s funeral, I whispered, “My water just broke.” His mother scoffed, “We’re grieving. Call a taxi yourself.”

Alone.

In the back seat, soaked through my black dress, I watched the cemetery fade behind a curtain of rain. I didn’t cry. Not when the driver panicked at a red light. Not when the pain tore through me. Not when I reached the hospital with no one waiting, no one holding my hand.

At 2:17 a.m., my son arrived.

He had Samuel’s dark hair and my stubborn lungs.

I named him Elias.