The warmth had always had a texture to it that I had attributed to personality and had eventually come to understand as conditionality, that she was warm to me in the specific way of someone who is warm to the satellite orbiting the thing they actually love.
She made comments.
Not the pointed comments of a woman who has decided to be difficult, but the softer comments of a woman who has a worldview and is simply sharing it without considering that the sharing is itself a statement about what she believed.
How lucky I was that Mark provided so well.
How nice it must be not to worry about money.
How proud she was that he’d done so well for himself.
I had heard these comments for nine years and had understood them as evidence of an old-fashioned sensibility, the worldview of a woman who had been raised to understand that a man providing for his family was the natural order, and that a woman’s good fortune was measured in the quality of the man she had married.
The comments had not previously required me to correct them.
They had required this, and I had not.
This was the second error.
